For anyone who knows MS, they know that it is an unpredictable adventure. The hard thing about that for me is, I don’t do well with surprises. My life is all about structure and predictability and order. So, as you can imagine, MS doesn’t fit well into that little mold I have made. 😉 I am slowly learning (or hope to be learning) how to take setbacks and unexpected changes with the fruit of the spirit…it seems my long-suffering, faithfulness, and self control still need quite a bit of work…but I’m making some headway, one baby step at a time.
I have been battling another relapse…mild in comparison to others I have faced, but no less frustrating or disappointing. Now that I am trying to more closely manage my diet and stress level, however, I have been facing this relapse without the use of steroids. The decline started around September 21. I had lost complete use of my left leg and started to lose a lot of strength in my right as well. After 3 weeks of decline, I noticed things were starting to look up. By Oct 15 I could move my left foot slightly and am now able to rotate it quite a bit. I was also able to do some knee lift exercises with my right leg yesterday, which I had lost the ability to do. I was even able to lift my left leg once. 🙂
The point of this story is simply this…God is good, He has made a glorious body in His image, and a glorious body that is capable of healing. 😉 I have just got to be willing to provide it with the nourishment that it needs…and more so, I have to be willing to AVOID the things that it doesn’t. And again, slowly but surely, I am learning what those things are.
Most importantly, I need to remember that there are things MORE than diet that need to be addressed. Our bodies need proper diet, yes, but they also need a healthy mind, and a healthy SPIRIT to function optimally! I had been trying so hard to make everything right with my diet that I had been neglecting very important parts of the equation. God has told me these things a million times, but for some reason it just never clicked I guess. What was I missing? What was I doing wrong? Why was I still relapsing and not improving as fast as I should?
“A sound heart is life to the body,
but envy is rottenness to the bones” ~Proverbs 14:30
“A merry heart does good, like medicine,
but a broken spirit dries the bones” ~Proverbs 17:22
“The spirit of a man will sustain him in sickness,
but who can sustain a broken spirit” ~Proverbs 18:14
My spirit was broken. My heart was broken. My mind has been broken. All of these things stand far above the importance of the food. Not that food isn’t important, it is a very important part…but if my heart and my mind and my spirit are broken, what is it that will tell the body how to make use of all of these nutrients? It makes so much sense to me now. It was like a big “DUH” moment. I had heard it a thousand times, never had it sunk in….until now! 😉
So the Lord is working in my spirit and perfecting my heart and changing my mind. And through His graces, as those heal, the body shall follow. It has done it before. I was spiritually alive and my heart was on fire for God…and I watched every one of those lesions vanish from that MRI. And as soon as I lost my fire for Him, I lost the health of my flesh right along with it. So I will climb this mountain again, because He is worth it! 😉 And there WILL be victory, because He is faithful! Because He has shown me His faithfulness, I just need to stop forgetting! 😉
So do bear with me on this journey of mine. We will share in many more recipes and nourishing tips…but don’t forget the nourishment of your Spirit, mind, and heart. For without that, there is no life to heal.